My journey to find bliss within

This is my why behind everything I do!

I grew up in Brazil as a little overachiever. Had good grades at school, practice competitive sports - gymnastics for 5 years, followed by water polo for another 5 years - had lots of friends and a fun social life. I finished high school at 17 and Law School at 23. Got married at 24 and moved to the USA with my husband. I decided to get pregnant right away, because being a mom had always been my biggest dream. Then we saved some money and bought our first home to move in with our little baby girl!

And then I had a panic attack! I realized that I had achieved everything that I had planned, or at least what society had planned for me to do: college degree, marriage, child, house…I freaked out that I had no more big milestone to accomplish! I felt lost without a goal or purpose. Should I just watch the years go by while I got older? I was just 26!

More importantly, I didn’t feel whole as I thought I would. While I was waiting to reach the next milestone, I had a feeling that when I did it all, I would finally feel happy and complete. But it didn’t feel that way. AT ALL!

How come achieving all of this on the outside was not bringing the happiness inside? With that, it came a increase sense of guilty and shame for being ungrateful.

I started to shut down all these uncomfortable feelings until I could no longer feel anything anymore, and went into depression. I lost a lot of weight since I couldn’t taste food and couldn’t find pleasure in eating. I basically went around like a robot, because I had shut down all emotions. It was a difficult period.

Then came yoga

A voice inside of me told me to try this yoga thing, not like a fitness routine like I’ve done before, but really study it deeply and practice constantly. IT SAVED MY LIFE.

Yoga taught me to ride the waves of life, the good, the bad, the pleasant, the ugly. It’s all life. The beauty is to ride the waves of changes that never stops. Enjoy the journey, not the destination, be present and all that.

Meditation took my journey to a whole different level! I realized that the exploration of my internal self was a wonderful adventure with no end in sight. Why worry about the achievements on the outside, if the real work is to be done inside?

My excitement and renewed enjoyment for life and work took me a bit too far. I was soon doing to much, feeling exhausted, burnt out, and getting sick constantly. That is when I decided to dive deeper into Ayurveda, to learn how to balance my own body-mind type and natural tendencies, so I was truly nourishing all my layers and my aims of life, bringing a greater balance to myself.

If you struggle with feelings of lack of purpose, low energy, low self-steem, if you experience a state of fear, loneliness, insecurity, despair, sadness, anxiety, stress…let me tell you: it doesn’t have to be this way! More importantly, you don’t have to make big life changes to feel better. Joy is already inside you, it has always been. You just need to learn how to reconnect to it, and I want to guide you on the path.

I will love to share my Ayurvedic approach to Yoga and Meditation with you.

Love,

Livia.